Letting you know

Dear Mama,

Just wanted to let you know that Pops had to have two stints put in a couple of his arteries.  Doctor found something he didn't like on his last checkup so off the the heart hospital we went.  They found 2 arteries that were 99% blocked.  Did the stints right then and there.  No problems.  You should have seen how good he looked after that was done.  His color improved immediately, his breathing was better, & he said he felt better.  Duh!!  I told him that's what happens when blood is flowing correctly.  He did have to stay overnight in the hospital but he was his old self when I picked him up the next day.  I have been calling him every few days & he just sounds better & better.  He is such a blessing in my life. 

I think Little Dog has lost some weight.  He doesn't look so "round".  Do ya think that could be because you are no longer feeding him cookies when you have one??  LOL  He still looks through the house for you but is letting Pops take him out & is still the best little watch dog for someone of his size & weight. 

Pops tells me all the time how much he misses his sweetheart.  He doesn't get out much, just to the store & once in awhile out to eat.  But it has been really cold & there was a little ice one day so I am glad he stays home where it is warm.  February 2nd I am taking him for the laser on his eye.  I hope it helps the vision some.

I was in WalMart in Madill with Sparky Friday night & there on the soup aisle, right at eye level, was the biggest can of bean with bacon soup I had ever seen. There were so many cans of that soup.  Remember what trouble we always had finding it for you?  I just immediately teared up & thought of you.  I really wanted to buy you that soup & fix it for you. 

Damn it Mama, I miss you so much.  My birthday is fast approaching & for the first time in my life I won't be able to share it with you.  I won't get a phone call, I won't hear how it was 80 degrees in January in OK the day I was born.  I won't get to hear you say "I cannot believe you are 59".  Then we would talk about age & all that comes with experience & wisdom.  Crap!!

Auntie E is slipping further & further into her dementia.  She will be moving in Feb to a full-blown Alzeheimer's home for the remainder of her life.  I won't have to tell her you died because she thinks she is the only surviving child from your family.  Sad because she is not, but I was not looking forward to breaking the news to her.  I guess everything works out as it is ordained. 

It's a cold Winter's day here in OK.  I am sure the sun is shining brightly in your world though.  You are probably working in a garden or hanging out with Dave.  That's how I picture you, in a beautiful flower-filled garden with Grandma making lovely things spring from the ground.  I see Dave riding up on his Harley to spend time with you.  Someday, I will join you.  I know it will be but a moment for you, but it will be forever for me.

I love you Mama !!!